...and I'm going to do regular sessions to a doctor. A psychologist.
In the past have been in analysis and I never solved anything (indeed, it was me who listened to the problems of my psychologists XDDD WTF)
I was pretty skeptical, but this lady seemed to me very sweet and I decided to try it, so it went well. And I'm finally managing to throw away all the negativity that I can't "burn" with the daily meditation. Talking to someone is always good, and I'm finding more and more solutions.
I will not talk about anything in advance, but are coming great news!
